Category Archives: Guru bhakthi

Same Life. Different Life.

To my guru.
It is a wonder.
The work is more than ever before.
The stakes are higher than ever before.
The challenges are harder than ever before.
The ups and downs more often than ever before.
Yet.
There is calm within
There is liquid energy
There is quiet confidence.
There is unabated joy
There is lucid thinking
There is mind-blowing love.
For all work. For all people.
Its not a wonder, since,
In every breath, I feel you.
Ramana in your form
Is rooted in the heart.
Let your grace dig deeper roots
Let your grace itself water them.
Let your grace merge into me.
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Little fish in the mighty river

You said,
“Follow the course of the river”

I am still a little fish
Learning to swim in the ocean of life.

I swim merrily
In the still waters at your feet.
Knowing in my heart that
When turbulence hits
I can take refuge
At the abode of my Guru.

Far from this haven
Where the river throws torrents,
Currents and whirlpools
This fish may not survive.

Until my fins grow strong
Please keep me safe and calm.
That is all I pray for.

How a bangle becomes a benediction

Guru’s grace flows everywhere.
Still, looking everywhere but at Him,
I had clogged its entry into my heart
Through His own grace,
the clog cleared.

As His grace shone, I found
He became my all.
Various verses on guru,
previously only poetic chants
shone as self experience.

I held onto Him tightly
as fears melted and joy arose.
Still, the clogs made their insistent appearance.
As life’s pinpricks took monstrous sizes
And emotions created havoc,
the grace seemed to disappear.

With compassion, Guru gave
A gross reminder for me,
who is still tied to this gross body.
His advice to wear a bangle
seemed not to make sense.
Until I realized,
it is no longer a bangle,
but a benediction.

When the waves throw me around,
The bangle is a life saving rope
That will bring me back safe
To the one true home
To my Guru’s feet.

Inexplicable wonder – the guru tattva

Everybody says you are
A human form. A man.
A friendly person. A learned one.
So simple. So humble.
Always smiling and compassionate.
That you are.

However,
I have found what you are.
And that is totally inexplicable.
It is a wonder beyond words.

A wonder that shines through
Life’s darkening clouds
As well as the glitter and glam.

A wonder that sits within
Still amid turbulence
Blissful amid sorrow.

A wonder that is so effulgent
That mind is pulled back
To witness this brightness
After every thought that goes out.

How can one as lowly as me
Have even a glimpse
Into such wonder?
Its not my effort.
It is only immeasurable grace.
That has poured on me.
I want to stay drenched for ever.

Crows vs Hamsapakshi

My Guru,
You are the tattva darshinah
The One that knows
The One thing to be known.

We are the Ones
That know a bit of this and bit of that
All irrelevant, all useless.

Yet, like screeching crows
Which shriek when they find
A piece of rotten food
We caw caw, we boast.

This habit has to die
This screeching has to stop.
The only power to quell it
Has to come from your silence.

Incomparable beauty – Guru’s actions – #3

 

Does praise affect him?

Inspite of a wonderful devotion towards Swamiji, I control myself not to constantly show it amid people. I think it would make people uncomfortable to see unbridled devotion (It used to be the case with me – when people raved about their Gurus, I have stood embarrassed and unable to understand the guru bhakthi not many years ago, so I do understand!)

However, once in a while, it gushes out. Words of praise and gratefulness gush out, often incoherently. A friend told me to control it since it might make Swamiji uncomfortable. I feel strongly that it will not – I will control for others’ sakes, but he will understand. He is not like us ordinary mortals for such praises to go to his head – we cannot superimpose our weaknesses on somebody like him.

After all, for such saints, “tulya-ninda-stuti ” (Bhagavad Gita 12.19) Criticisms and compliments are alike for them.

When I do say such things, he passes it on to his guru. Kanchi Paramacharya speaks of this too in his “Namaskara mahima”. Let him pass it on, but for us, we do need to verbalize this once in a while directly.

 

 

 

Incomparable beauty – Guru’s actions – #2

Continuing on my Guru’s immensely beautiful actions.

Weariness with samsara

It is hard to measure progress in spiritual sadhana. However, the increasing periods of calmness and the ability to be in solitude have been blessings for me.

What was troubling me was a notion in my mind that family and work relationships were intruding in my contemplation and sadhana. Following my planned sadhana and my chosen values felt difficult and I was tending to pass the blame onto others close to me.

While this unnecessary torment went on for some time, it reached breaking point one time and I broke down before Swamiji. The compassion I got from him is incomparable – this is a compassion that is devoid of any judgements, any disappointments and any expectations. (when I analyze the compassion I give even my own children, it is tinged with either a judgement on their behavior or an expectation from them or stems from a disappointment in them).

His message was simple – nobody can hinder your spiritual progress/sadhana. However, in samsara, one also has to be subtle and not so in-the-face when following one’s path. Sadhana cannot be devoid of love for family, friends, etc.

When I analyzed my blabberings to him later, I felt it was very childish of me. However, he never treated me as anything other than an exalted person. I hope to show the same kind of compasstion to others.